there was a time when we loved each other. I'm sure of that.
being together was everything that matter
it's called passion, my love

but then...something happen
i know i still crave your touch,
your lips
your love
your body
i still crave our love
and i do believe that there was a time when it wasn't just passion
it was love

i don't think there is love anymore
although i know
you still think you love me
and
perhaps i still love you

i'm sure i still crave your touch
your tongue

but we lost each other.
how did that happen? i don't know

e é melancólico ver que o nosso
aquilo que era nosso
se perdeu

then i kind of felt alone
i was feeling lonely
i know it's not an excuse
but i will use it as an excuse
i was lonely
and although we were still together
there was a hole
an empty space
and i need someone
someone that at least pretends it cares about me
it understands me
and there he was

and you felt betrayed
you still do
and i hurted my self
hurted you, especially you

i hope you do believe i never meant to heart you. NEVER

then i runed away
but ou kind of runed after me
and i'm just a woman, man

i'm human, too human, too woman
i know you don't believe that
i love the way you see me
and i love the way you touch me

so many times i thought that
"what's the use of having a body
if he's not going to touch me"
i know you don't believe me
or maybe you do
do you think i'm too common

Please don't. above all don't do that
it would kill me.
yeah so many times i see a part of me is dead
but i'm still alive

and althoug i know we can't stay together
so many times all i wish is lay down in your arms
and stay there forever

i runed
and then
then someone else appeared
i don't know what it was
what it is?
He's across the world
and i provably will never see him again
i think he listened me
i think we were both in a hole
so we could see each other
and once again i was lonely and alone.

I hope you can forgive me one day
i hope i tell you one day
but i have a huge fear
because on that day
i will completly loose you
loose your trust
your love
your kisses
but my biggest fear is
that you loose yourself on that day.
so provably i will never tell you
that's my excuse
i never told you i was higher
only you saw me like that
but, please do forgive me
and please know that i never wanted to hurt you

and that is also why i have to get away from you


I hope you forgive me one day.
and mostly i hope i forgive myself.

To my love!

"tão dramaturgicamente correcto"

You got me by João Lopes

"Faz-nos acreditar que a vida é literatura"
"relevo dos teus seios no decote"

"mas era só por não saber lidar com a precisão dos teus termos....imaginando sempre os meus dedos dentro de ti. Os dedos, meu amor? Não consegues ser um pouco mais romântico? Ou, pelo menos, não dizer tudo o que te passa pela cabeça?"

"põe termo à vida ao som de canção obsessiva"

"Os jornais ainda usam a palavra amante?"

"quietude sem retorno"

"deixando-me contemplar-te como uma estátua eternizada pela razão do meu olhar"

"Não chores por mim, claro."

"E consigo olhar a tua nudez como se fosse virgem... Perdoa-me ser tão infantil."

"e os dedos no meu ventre...Fica aí. Para sempre. Bem vês, estou ocupado a decidir se...

...mas a onda número cinco é sempre espectacular. Eu sei."

there is no band

something like this
"there is no band
and yet
we can still hear the band" correcção "the music"

If you haven't seen yet, you can see it today!
just see it today or whenever

"don't expect logic"

http://www.cinema2000.pt/ficha.php3?id=2692

http://www.mulholland-drive.net/studies/silencio.htm

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Fucking an unemployed person!

Hi Guys

I’m alive…and not in Chicago!

As you will see…if you continue reading this fucking joke:
1) this blog sucks;
2) this is my blog, then it can suck and it’s not your business;
3) I really enjoy using the word fuck;
4) English is not my mother tongue as we can easily see (I’m trying to improve my English! And if you want to know what’ my mother tongue you have to continue reading (maybe I could be a good marketer!)…and eventually (if you get to know me that’s for sure) you would want to taste it. Yam (I don´t read cartoons then I don’t know which (what’s the word?) to use;
5) My name in this blog is E. and want to pretend that I’m funny although I know I’m not; but in this times and being unemployed, what else can I do? –yes it is a question and I will accept answers…if they are serious!

Let’s get started (rights of author)

Rewind, I forgot one thing, a lot of what mean to be jokes you wont understand, because they are personal jokes and because I’m too self centered.


Let’s get started again.

Today, the topic is Unemployment

As I said before I’m unemployed…and so a lot of my friends. Unfortunatelly this is not a joke.

Yesterday, I may have found the reason why it happened. I was reading a chronicle (an ironic one or so I think; if I can find the author I will write the reference…but then people can think I’m using is name to have more readers…so for now, let’s say this chronicle was in a magazine that I was reading while waiting for an interview) and there it was the reason! (please, someone put here the symbol of a light, great discovery, EUREKA!) It is a contagious disease!

Apparently normal people (employed) shouldn’t sleep neither being with contact with employed people. FUCK! (wait a second you are here to read not to fuck anyone; forget if you thought it was that kind of blog). So not only we are unemployed as we can’t fuck anyone. And the sad truth is that now that we have all the time and we could spend it on preliminars and on good sex…we don’t really feel like! And if we do…we will find guilty! “Life oh life oh life”

Yeah, because all the other good healthy, employed people are so busy. And many of them like to preach that they are so busy, that they don’t even have time to breath…to say hi to an unemployed friend…well, I’m sure they heard it is a contagious disease.

Apparently we have 2 options (I hope and I do believe there are more…but so far I just met these 2…then I will just talk about what I met!). We work so hard that we forget there are other things than work (if you are lucky to have a job) or we are unemployed…and you forget that you have a life. “TRAGIC”

This was supposed to be a blog with fun…but I really don’t have fun. And who the fuck starts with this topic?!
-only a sick person.

-This crazy people made as –burgeous people- believe that you could work, earn money, and enjoy life.
-yes, I know they will say “poor girl” (did I tell you I’m a girl? If you wasted your time reading this, now you know); she’s so pessimistic; she must be with a depression.
-Hey clever people: of course I am; what else would I be writing this blog?
-and the fucking thing is that I don’t have money to go to a psychiatrist!

-I have a theory.
-I read Nietzsche when I was 18. So pornography is forbidden, but not Nietzsche?
Maybe that’s the reason why I am so nihilistic (at least I know the meaning of this fancy word, do you? Oh, you are more pornography. What can we do? Don’t give me the answer)

-See how self-centered I am? That’s my blog!!! I can.
I have a degree. Not in Linguistic of course! Most of the people would say (at least I think they would say): She´s a clever person. She has that degree, she must be clever. The others who don´t think/ say that:
a) don’t know what that degree is (neither do I)
b) are too snobes
c) took the same degree (yeah we are not clever at all, are we?! Ok, maybe some of you are! Then you should have another degree; don’t came here and give a bad image of Biochemistry; Did you see, they even talk about it in the Red Bull publicity…it must be good. I never tasted.

"Whoever you are, I've always depended on the kindness of strangers."

"A Streetcar Named Desire"; Elia Kazan


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if only i could...

http://www.allyrics.net/s/6857/Spoon-lyrics/155661/The_Ghost_Of_You_Lingers/index.htm

If you were here
Would you calm me down?
You settled this part
Feelings I fight
Feeling so bright
The feelings I fight
Yeah
Or would you calm me down
When the night gets shadowed
We fast
If you were here
Would you calm me down
(We settled this part)
The man asleep(if you were here)KnockupI see it(you settled this part)They’re all aliveThe ghost of you lingersIt lingersMy lifeSo lightWould you settle this part?The ghost of you lingersAnd leavesI always think about itOh, would you calm me down?Right ChannelIf you were hereWould you calm me down?You settled this partFeelings I fightFeeling so brightThe feelings I fightAll the strangers in townWould know if you were hereWould you ease my mind?Come on!The sleep fled from my eyesAnd I, I know that I need someGive a thought to the one that you knowWe put on the clinic(if you were here)It felt good to me(would you calm me down)

Can’t see I’m losing it
Must have set up the scene
(would you calm me down)
Put on a clinic
But I will need to write(we settled this part)
Oh, would you ease my mind?YeahPut on a clinic till we hit theWallJust like a sailor with his wools beat softI had a light bad noon that could be put back togetherMy lifeSo lightIf you were hereWould you calm me down?lyrics from ALLYRICS.NET

E.