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aniquilação. opressão. o aniquilamento da própria personalidade devia ser punido por lei. a opressão disfarçada de ...de algo muito feio que não aparenta ser tão horrendo assim. a frustação que certos seres -quase toda a gente mas uns que têm menos veneno que outros- descarregam noutros seres.
"Ninguém o pode fazer sentir inferior sem o seu consentimento", e tantas vezes o tenho consentido. tantas vezes me esqueço de não o consentir. e só depois de consentido me apercebo que o consenti. hoje não foi um dia mau. foi um dia de tortura. de revivalismo demasiado kitsch. de ferimento e exposição. de contacto com realidades que preferia não conhecer. de uma auto-tortura imposta sem justa causa ou até com justa causa mas injustificável.

I've been a bad, bad girl
I've been careless with a delicate man
And it's a sad, sad world
When a girl will break a boy just because she can

Don't you tell me to deny it
I've done wrong and I want to suffer for my sins
I've come to you 'cause I need guidance to be true
And I just don't know where I can begin

What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm feeling like a criminal (also with myself and that is the worst; allow them to make you suffer)
And I need to be redeemedTo the one I've sinned against
Because he's all I ever knew of love

Heaven help me for the way I am (and help me to keep mysef myself and mentally healthy as sometimes I go to the end of the hole)
Save me from these evil deeds before I get them done
I know tomorrow brings the consequence at hand
But I keep living this day like the next will never come

Oh help me but don't tell me to deny it
I've got to cleanse myself of all these lies 'till I'm good enough for him (it's not about him or anyone in particular it's about them: all the fucking idiots that contribute to your unhappiness)
I've got a lot to lose and I'm bettin' high so I'm begging you
Before it ends just tell me where to begin

What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm feeling like a criminal
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I've sinned against
Because he's all I ever knew of love

Let me know the way
Before there's hell to pay
Give me room to lay the law and let me go
I've got to make a play
To make my lover stay
So what would an angel say, the devil wants to know (so many times
What I need is a good defense
Cause I'm feelin' like a criminal
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I've sinned against
Because he's all I ever knew of love

What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm feeling like a criminal
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I've sinned against
Because he's all I ever knew of looooooooooooooooooooooooooove
Yeah yeah yeah uhh uhh uhhhhhh...

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